Here's Some Freaky Deaky News, Guys!

Alright, so I know you guys need to hear all about my New Zealand trip, and I am going to post about it, I promise! I was just in the middle of writing, and I was only on my second day, but I was soooo distracted so I want to just blog about what’s been happening in my personal like/lack-of love life, because it is very distracting right now. Which is honestly something kind of new to me.

So.

My mom, sister, and a couple friends have heard this story I think, so I apologize to them for the recap, but there is even more news!!!

So on the Thursday of my trip in New Zealand, I finally had internet after just the one time I had it my first night. So I also checked facebook. And I have a message from Olivia.

She writes to me saying “I wanted to be the first to tell you, I didn’t want you to hear it from someone else,” and goes on to explain that she drunkenly made out with Matt on Tuesday night (she sent the message the next day, I just wasn’t able to get it) and that she stopped it before anything else could happen and that she is so sorry and hopes I can forgive her and it’ll never happen again and on and on.

WHAT. THE. F$#%.

Are you bleeping kidding me????!?!

Olivia made out with Matt. Three days after I left for New Zealand. Hmm, do we sense a bit of a scheme here?

I was so enraged when I got this news, I could not even focus my eyes. Smiling was seriously impossible. I could have strangled a kitten.

Now this didn’t mess up my trip that much. I told Anna about, and she happily tried to distract me from Olivia’s complete back-stabb-age, soaking in a hot tub with some English and Welsh guys and then going out for a night on the town. And then the rest of the trip, I was like, well I can’t do anything about it here, and I won’t have to see Olivia again until January, so I’m just going to enjoy my time here. Which I did.

So really, I am just made because she completely betrayed my trust and went for the guy I have had a crush on for five months behind my back. I guess it’s nice that she emailed me about it right away, but seriously woman, you do not break girl code and then apologize for it after the fact and seriously think that will make it all better.

And I’m not so mad about Matt making out with her, because right now I have no intentions to start anything with him or even hook up with him because I am leaving in like ten days, and I will probably only see him the next two days, so really the fact that he kissed her back doesn’t bother me. And they were both drunk. I’m not really a jealous person, I don’t think, though I have never been in a situation in which I would find out if I was jealous or not, like a relationship, but I am not jealous of Olivia.

Sorry for the rambling, by the way. I just need to get my thoughts out because I kind of have no one here to talk to about it. Except after last night, which I will now explain.

So Olivia’s making out with Matt was not the only awful thing she did. She told at least one person that I like Matt, meaning all of Third North probably knows now.

Last night, I was talking to Feeney, a Canadian girl, about boys, because she wanted to tell me about a guy that she kissed, and I was kind of the only one she could tell because she didn’t want it getting around Queen’s. And then she brought up Matt, and I was like whoa whoa WAIT A MINUTE how do you know that I like Matt? And someone, she said Ree or Ray probably, told her. And she also knew about the whole Olivia fiasco betrayal saga. SO. Olivia told someone I liked Matt. I think she told Matt I liked him, as well as someone else, probably a girl on Third North because she wanted advice for trying to win back my friendship after her bitch move.

And. This got around to Feeney. And Dan. And now I am almost certain both Ree and Ray know, and Matt, because Dan talked to him about it and he already knew. Which means Third North knows. At least. I can’t tell how much of a gossip machine Queen’s is, and maybe mostly everyone in the college knows.

I guess I don’t care. I will be leaving, and I won’t see most of these people ever again in my life.

It is just the fact that Olivia told at least two people that I liked Matt.

OLIVIA. JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE FEELING GUILTY FOR MAKING OUT WITH THE GUY I HAVE A CRUSH ON WHILE I WAS AWAY, DOES NOT MEAN YOU GET TO GO BLABBING TO PEOPLE ABOUT ME JUST BECAUSE YOU WANT SOMEONE TO TALK TO ABOUT YOUR OWN LIFE.

Two things wrong here.

She made out with Matt.

And.

She told people about me liking him just because she wanted help with her own f***ing problems.

And I know she did this. She just loooooooves to go over problems over and over again in excruciating detail, and this problem would require her to explain how I liked him, and so of course she couldn’t leave that out, even though it is my and only my place to tell anyone about it.

And last night Dan said something about then making out at the pub too. I am not really sure what he was talking about, like which pub, which night, etc, but I don’t doubt it.

I am highly censoring myself right now, by the way. Please appreciate this.

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Well I think that’s about all I have to say on the matter.

I plan on just enjoying my time here now. I’m not going to worry about what Matt or anybody else thinks, because why should I care? Last night I got a couple offers from other guys that would take my mind of Matt, if ya know what I’m sayin’, but I turned them down, because I just feel weird hooking up with guys right now. It just sounds too complicated to me.

I will blog about last night in my other post! It was pretty eventful. Met an Australian guy who actually dances well!!! Loved that, except he seemed to think I was a skank because of the way I dance, which means he tried to pick me up, which means I stopped having fun with him. Ach, well, life.

I will do a post about New Zealand now! I do believe I have time to write it today!

Alright. Thanks for letting me rant and rave. I need to write a scathing email to Olivia now, wish me luck! I love love love you guys and miss you so much! I will be home in your arms soon!

xoxo