I'm Sane but I'm Overwhelmed, I'm Lost but I'm Hopeful

Phew.

I need a massage and a Law and Order: SVU marathon.

I’m still having upsy-downsy-ness. It’s just some things can really get me down really quickly, but some things can really make me happy. It just feels like my life is a little slump-tacular right now. And the weather doesn’t help. It’s always raining.
I got to skype my Dad today, so he heard all about it. Still adjusting to life in Queens, still having to meet people and be conscious of that kind of stuff, like what first impressions I make and trying to make a connection with someone that will make them want to see me again.
Can your body have a physical reaction to a place? I think it can. I remember thinking this before, back when I was at UniLodge. I can’t remember if I blogged about it though. Like right now, the palms of my hands are peeling. Not very much, only so that I would notice, but that never happens. And I am breaking out on my back. Which also never happens, and I was also very grateful for, but now there are zits poppin’ up and it’s awful and I want them to leave!!!!! I think the clearness of my skin can definitely be stress related. Womp wooooooomp.
I know these are totally things that you guys want to hear about, and I know you just love hearing about my teenager skin, but I feel like blogging about it, so I’m gonna. Deal. ;)

Tonight a lot of people from Queens (and from other colleges, I hear) are all going to a bar called PA’s. Never been there. I was so tempted to go though! I totally would if I didn’t have a 9 am tutorial tomorrow. I am actually kind of upset I can’t. I want to meet more people and hang out with Queens people. But they said they usually get there around 11!! I thought, if I were to go, I would just go for a while then leave around 11! Haha. Me and my early night sensibilities. I wish they were going out tomorrow night, and then I wouldn’t have class the next day.

Siiiiggghhhh.

Oh well. I still need to do reading for tomorrow, and I kind of just want to stay in and watch a movie anyway. Earlier today, I thought a good tearjerker would be good. Then at least I could get all my sad out and get past it. I also want to go to bed early. I have been very good at it lately, going to bed around 11 (yes, that is early, and yes, I do know I am crazy according to you older people :P) and then it’s easy to wake up at 9.

Oh, and today, while talking to my Dad, we discussed travel trips for spring break and post finals. I am very excited. I just have to find a well-priced trip. Airfare is going to be… upsetting, probably. They have all these pre-planned trips for students that involve a lot of rafting and scuba diving and tour stuff that sound fun and I know a lot of people doing them, but I have this idea in my head where I can find some Australians to travel with, and we can travel really cheap and light and just go exploring. That would be AWESOME. Ahhh. Such a dream. I still have time to find them, though. Spring break is in a month and a week though… haha, that’s pretty close.

Anyway, that was my super boring post that I just wrote out to get my thoughts down and let you know what’s been happing (a.k.a. nothing exciting) but I’m sure I will have some stories from this weekend. Olivia’s best friend is coming to visit for the weekend (she’s studying abroad in Sydney) so we are going to go out. I will try to take pictures! And remember to post them!

OH and big shout out to my MOIN!!! WHO JUST TURNED 20!!!! WHOOOOOOO! I congratulate you, you have successfully avoided teenage pregnancy. Haha anywaaaay, happy birthday, moin! I love you so so much and I wish I could have been there! I miss you like Nemo missed his papa fish Marlin! Happy birthday!!

I love and miss everyone!!! So so so much! Xxoo



p.s. this week’s title comes from an Alanis Morissette song, “Hand in my Pocket.” I have been listening to her angsty tunes a lot lately… haha goodnight! xoxo